time

the only thing i really want at this particular moment in time, is time. if i had as much time as i wanted, i would be able to develop. it takes me two weeks of doing nothing to totally relax and start doing something productive that i enjoy, like art or programming. if i had time i would be able to learn at my own pace, and actually enjoy learning, rather than having to cram for a stupid examination. the benefits of the old a-level system where that you could laze around in the first year, enjoying the topics you had chosen and perhaps expand on bits that were not in the syllabus. all we do now is learn the exam. we don't learn the subject, we learn the answers to the exam. this is wrong somehow.everyone is in a rush, and this is required for some occasions, but not all. we are forced to speed our lives up during a period in our lives where we could enjoy life the most. however it is snatched away from us for the purpose of- what? to perform well? to bow down to society? idon't know, and i don't think i
wish to know.
i want a gap, yet i do not want a gap year for that will be too long a gap. i just feel stressed, that's probably all it boils down to... :(

by keot, posted on Tuesday, 03. June 2003 @ 1607.35 bst